Learning to let it go

This week we read articles on team-players and self-starters. I believe that I am a self-starter, but I have appreciated being in a team environment. What I like about teams is that everybody has special talents. For my business administration classes when they were team projects we would describe what we were good at and we would divide the assignments accordingly. I must say even the worse slackers ended up being assets towards the end of the course. You would be surprised what the least motivated can pull out of their hat. Admittedly when I speak in public I become nervous and have difficulty looking into the audience, in fact I may even stutter, geez, I have had panic attacks, even if I am talking to classmates that are supporting me and I am friends with them. I have problems virtually speaking as well when presenting, I get panicky and nervous. Twice during team presentations we had to each present are own part, but we needed someone to do the presentation throughout the process, and I have to say that both times it was the one that contributed the least, didn’t practice with the rest of the group, did not contribute work, the slacker ended up being the lead presenter who had the natural gift of gab. Each time, I was grateful, and all the drama, resentment, and extra work we all had to do, and ill feelings evaporated when the slacker(s) came through and presented. Even when the inevitable rate your team-mate report came up I would think about the last minute save and I would rate accordingly as opposed to previous ill will I/We may have towards them. Perspectives change when you least expect it.